Angry Blog! -Carolyn

Sorry this blog is so sudden but something just came up! Must... Blog... about it!

It has come to my attention that a certain someone and I are NOT friends anymore! For the sake of this person, which is very generous on me, I will not be using their real name but indeed a fake one. So here goes...

I met "Carolyn" in high school. She was always quiet and such but I talked to her because we had class together. Pretty cool person. Yeah I'm not going into all the detail since that is irrelevant. Anyway... we end up going to college together and even better living in the same residence hall only 3 doors away from each other. Talk about a relief. To know that I was coming all this way for school and I wouldn't be entirely alone. Since we've already known each other, we take it amongst ourselves to hang out and stick together. Fine by me.
Everything was okay for the most part except that she was completely shy. Any event that involved dancing, she would just stand on the sidelines and since I don't dance alone I stood right along with her being miserable. But later on I started to slowly branch out, or at least attempt to... Yes she's the one from the previous blog post who didn't like sororities and as I said before, I went alone.
I understood that she wasn't comfortable with some things but c'mon at least TRY! College is the place to find yourself. Try new things. To learn and grow from different experiences! So her flat out refusals kind of pissed me off. She later tried to sell me that "Maybe next time" bull crap of an excuse knowing dang well she was lying. So when I would bring up something to do I would follow it up with a "Why should I ask when you never do anything?" which would make her respond with an "Ooooh wow," like she was offended. Which she shouldn't have been. I'm just being honest. Just because we're friends doesn't mean I'm going to sugar coat it to make you feel special. Umm... No.

Well anyway as you can already see, we're pretty much polar oppposites with her pretty much set in her ways and me wanting to venture out. But we still stuck together. To be honest I was getting kind of fed up but stayed in this friendship until I could at least find more friends. Don't get me wrong it's not like I wanted to kick her completely to the curb it was more like the front lawn if you know what I mean... Not my main friend but someone I could hang with every once in a while. Leave the ties unsevered. Sure doesn't seem like that now...
Lately we've been seeing less of each other, mostly because I've been under the weather and not in the mood to leave my room. She hasn't even texted or called me! And usually after a few days of the silent treatment she would ask if I'm "okay." That didnt happen. It wasn't until this past weekend that we've really even seen each other. We pass and I ask if she wants to come with me somewhere but she says she's about to go eat with a couple people. Hmmm... So she wasn't going to even text and ask if I wanted to come?

That's one thing that was becoming a recurring issue. Carolyn knows that I personally hate being alone if its unneccessary and avoidable. Like eating. I will NOT sit and eat alone. So we would usually go eat together but lately more and more she would go eat without me! I mean yeah you can be hungry and want something to eat but would it kill you to send a quick text to ask if I'd like to join? She used to... At times I would be hungry and text her asking if she wanted to get something and her response would be "I already ate." UGH!
Well back to my earlier thought, I dropped what I was going to do an went to eat with the group in which she hardly spoke. Was she finally giving me the silent treatment?

For the rest of the weekend we hadn't spoken at all. As I had mentioned earlier, I was under the weather, which I doubt she even knew! Which kind of bugged me as well. Well I call her to see if another friend of ours was still going to the football game. His phone is shut off and he's always with her. He said "maybe" which I knew all too well meant no. Even more annoyed I decide to go to the game alone. Ugh it was so awkward to stand alone and have no one to talk to or cheer with. Carolyn also doesn't like football either. Which I can understand beacause I'm not that big of a fan either but it's fun to be in that high energy atmosphere. It's not that hard to follow, simply cheer when the crowd does or boo/ awwhh. Hell you can watch and clearly tell what's happening. And what else do you have better to do??? Cause I know she would just sit in her room. But whatever, it's her choice.

Haven't talked since then if you really even consider that talking. Today I pass her multiple times and we barely even look at each other! She goes on about her business as do I. She only texted me asking me to return her universal laptop mouse! WOW... And apparently she had sent our guy friend (previously mentioned) to my room to pick it up but I wasn't here. So when I get back I immediately take it down to her room and return it without a word.

I was talking about what happened to my roommate and she told me it was for the best. I honestly don' t know what happened on her behalf beacause you already know how I feel. And since she was brought up in conversation, I thought I check Facebook to see if she may had said something. Come to find out, SHE UNFRIENDED ME!!! I was in complete shock. I didn't think it would come to that. Not saying that Facebook detemines whether things are official or not but for her to newly create her profile about 3 weeks ago and have approximately 35 friends with me no longer one of them all of a sudden, what does that say?

It was when I found this out that I laughed in shock, paced the room a bit, and took a shower to cool down. I then decided to blog my frustration. And I know for sure that this post is long but what's done is done.

And that's just how it is now..

Love,
-Vampcake !